Looking back on my life so far as i begin to close in to my 20th, my assent to manhood as the world tells me i consider how I would change it.

How if i was more athletic in school and wasn’t scared to play Basketball like i wanted even though I was in the lowest set for sports. It was the only game i did love at school and still now. If i followed that instead of focusing on everything else…

I was a nerd through my lessons. as many of my now friends wont know i wanted to get the best grades and now looked at anything else, It made the bullying and everything else seem to manner less if i got that B or an A on that paper.

I know a lot of people dont know what i was like, and the few who do know I’ve changed…

I’m closing in on 20, the end of my teenage years and what do I have to show for it? I have no amazing stories… a few strangley tales which if you were’nt there you would listen.

Some times i like wish i could have lived to my potental now what am I? An Adult who wakes every day to another hateful and dreading day, A person who looks back and thinks “Why didn’t I try for the team” I could shoot hoops better then anyone when I tried, Why do i find this out on my own out the court at my childhood playground? when i could have been the person I wished I was.

If i could be anyone…. I would be the opposite to who i am now.